Well, April not only brings spring showers, it is also the month that Mom and Brother celebrate their birthdays. We made our annual pilgrimage down to Michael and Rich's and put in a weekend of MAJOR SHOPPING!! This year we got to spend Friday in Canton at Trade Days!!! The weather started out just a little cool, but quickly turned into a wonderful sunny day and we enjoyed ourselves very much!!! Needless to say we were POOPED by the time we covered some of it and we made it home worn out and exhausted but so very proud of all our treasures. (ummmm, I think it was mostly my treasures, although I think my brother did find one thing :)!!! Saturday we spent the day shopping around town and then went home, fixed a pizza and played a game. We all enjoyed ourselves and laughed and shared stories and memories.....I am truly blessed with a wonderful Mom and loving brother and his partner who I love just like my brother....they are really great to take me and any of my friends that I drag down there shopping and showing us all a great time....Not all brothers would do that for their sister!!! I know I am blessed. I am also amazed that my Momma made every step we did!!! It kinda shocked me when she told me how old she was....I don't know, I just never think of her age, she is always going and doing and working like a little work horse.....it just shook me up to say the least.....So if you get the chance in the next few days, give a shout out to my brother on April 9th and my Mom on April 14th......Happy Birthday you two....love you to the moon and back a zillion times.....
Spring has finally sprung at the Ragland Casa, and as with all the new flowers blooming and the trees budding out, it's hard to stay focused on what to do first.....Cabin fever has broken and I find myself doing a little bit of this and a little bit of that and then starting something else and moving on to that, and then somehow, I look up and the day is gone......but how can that be???? I haven't even finished my first task yet?? How can it be getting dark already.....didn't the time change?? Then I stop and look around me and see that I have just been a busy little bee going from one hive to the other.....This spring will be a new adventure in my farm life as well. As April nears, all 4 of my adult female goats are expecting babies.....so with that being said, before long, I will have all these new little babies running around. I am excited and kind of nervous at the same time....I will be here by myself and I am hoping and praying that none of them have any trouble, due to the fact that 3 of them will be new mommies....I want to try my hand at hatching some chicks too from all my feathered girls. I didn't want to incubate them, although easier, I want to let one of my hens hatch them and watch them grow. Lots of stuff, so little time....I will keep everyone posted on my spring fling adventures, and hopefully figure out how to post some pics of my new arrivals, both in the 4 legged and 2 legged kind and of course, as always, plant and flowers!!! Happy Spring EVERYONE!!
Spring has finally sprung at the Ragland Casa, and as with all the new flowers blooming and the trees budding out, it's hard to stay focused on what to do first.....Cabin fever has broken and I find myself doing a little bit of this and a little bit of that and then starting something else and moving on to that, and then somehow, I look up and the day is gone......but how can that be???? I haven't even finished my first task yet?? How can it be getting dark already.....didn't the time change?? Then I stop and look around me and see that I have just been a busy little be going from one hive to the other.....This spring will be a new adventure in my farm life as well. As April nears, all 4 of my adult female goats are expecting babies.....so with that being said, before long, I will have all these new little babies running around. I am excited and kind of nervous at the same time....I will be here by myself and I am hoping and praying that none of them have any trouble, due to the fact that 3 of them will be new mommies....I want to try my hand at hatching some chicks too from all my feathered girls. I didn't want to incubate them, although easier, I want to let one of my hens hatch them and watch them grow. Lots of stuff, so little time....I will keep everyone posted on my spring fling adventures, and hopefully figure out how to post some pics of my new arrivals, both in the 4 legged and 2 legged kind and of course, as always, plant and flowers!!! Happy Spring EVERYONE!!
It's hard to believe that it has been almost a year since my last entry!! Shame on me!! As the seasons change, so do our lives. This year has been full of change for me in all areas of my life. I can't believe that Coady has been gone for almost 4 years. In one way it feels like it happened only yesterday, the pain is still so real and so strong. But on the other hand it feels like my life drags on and the darkness doesn't ever end. Work is out of control with foreclosures coming in at every turn. I feel like I meet myself coming and going, and I guess that's a good thing as far as making a living. I hate that people are losing their homes at eveey turn. I am thankful that I have mine, even if I don't get to see it much! Joe and I found ourselves at the end of the road and too tired to keep trying. All of the events over the past several years finally caught up with us and we gave up trying. I feel like a feather in the wind and that I really don't belong anywhere or have a purpose. The house Is very lonely and quiet when I do get to be there. Summer has kept me busy with the yard and work, so I have made it ok I guess, who knows what the winter will bring. I have had some really great friends that have kept me busy and been there for me when I do meltdown.
So as the leaves change and blow around, I will be like one of them and see what color I turn and where the wind blows me.
Well, as the leaves turn colors and begin to fall, I look around and think "where did the summer go?" It seems like one minute we were opening up the pool and the next thing I know, we were closing it for the winter.....I turned around and summer was GONE!!! I think that this was due in part to all of our "projects" that we seem to have done during this past summer....Not only did we do many around our own house, and still have a few to do, I helped out my friends in putting granite tiles down in her kitchen and tumbled slate as her backsplash. It turned out very pretty, then the girl went and sold her home....needless to say, I was not happy about her leaving....she moved almost an hour away and if feels like she has moved to another country. As for our house, we started out doing the work ourselves, putting travertine down in the masterbath, that was a job, laying 18 inch tiles is no easy task. They are HEAVY!!! I won't even begin to go into the help that I got...Joe was great on the cutting with the wet saw, but when he was using a spoon to put grout in the grout lines, I don't even have the time to discuss our conversation, just suffice it to say that I think my blood pressure may have shot up a bit....then we started on the grilling deck for all our grills and smokers, we did get that done by 4th of July and enjoyed it very much, had all the family over and it was great until it started storming, but fortunately we had the front porch turned into a sunroom and everyone converged there and the living room and so all was not lost. Then after that, we decided we would just hire someome to redo the guest bath and the kitchen....that was a little hectic, going from 2 bathrooms to one for a couple of weeks made for a challenging situation at best. I don't know how families ever made it with one bathroom.... I guess you do what you gotta do....but all is done now, new bathroom completely updated with tumbled slate shower and slate floors, new granite counters for the vanity and new fixtures throughout. We painted the entire house again, and updated the kitchen, my favorite room now, with granite counters, glass backsplash and all new appliances....then we moved outside to do some more projects and finally got a huge, and I do mean huge, RV shed that stores the RV, boat and truck....it looks like a small fire department has taken up on the corner of our property....now we just have the privacy fence to finish over there to make it look a little better....there never seems to be a stopping place. But, somehow this last month found me and Joe, my brother and Rich all going over to take on the huge project of putting in new floors and painting for my Dad. We took a long weekend and all of us piled in and made huge progress on getting dad's house back in order. To help him breath a little better, we ripped up all his living room carpet, and replaced it with wood flooring, which turned out really beautiful, we painted all the rooms and cleaned until it all sparkled. It made a tremendous difference. Now if we can just keep him on track and keep the progress going. I think if he gets his bathroom redone, he will be set for a little while. Then I looked up and all the leaves had started changing and realized that fall was here and I didn't even have all my Halloween or fall stuff out.....no time to catch my breath and relax, its holiday time and time to start gift projects.....and I wonder where my time goes.....
Go ahead and mention my child
The one that died, you know
Don't worry about hurting me further
The depth of my pain doesn't show.
Don't worry about making me cry
I'm already crying inside
Help me to heal by releasing
The tears that I try to hide.
I'm hurt when you just keep silent
Pretending it doesn't exist
I'd rather you'd mention my child
Knowing that he has been missed.
You asked me how I'm doing.
I say "Pretty good" or "fine"
But healing is something on-going
I feel it will take a lifetime.
By Elizabeth Dent
Mom was thinking about you Coady and I came across this from my bereaved parents group, and I wanted you to know you are always on my mind.
Bees are buzzing everywhere, daffodils are blooming, the forsythia has the trees all golden and green is peeping out all around. Even the birds seem to sense that the cold of winter has passed and summer is around the next bend. My heart is still bitter cold with reality even though I see all the beauty of spring. Joe and I have been busy cleaning the yard up after the long winter. The ice took its toll on some of our trees and we lost the big plum tree that Coady and his Grandpa planted when we first moved in. One of the hurricanes that came through made it lean and we were waiting until spring to trim it up and hopefully get it back straight, well the ice beat us to it and laid it over. It broke my heart to see it down. Some times I feel like I am losing more and more of Coady. His dogs, his guns that were stolen, his games that were taken during the break-in, and now just little things that were left that had memories of him planting with Grandpa...gone....where does it end. Sometime is just seems like there is no purpose to life anymore. Just existing and not actually living.
I have picked up my paint brush again and have started painting some "art" if you can call it that. I think it is pretty good and I do enjoy it while I am doing it. I guess I enjoy the company just about as much as anything. There are times that I get frustrated trying to accomplish what I see in the picture I am trying to paint, and I don't realize that I have become tense. But for the most part, all of us in there enjoy laughing and just spending time together. It is a mixed bag of humans in that class, but a good class none the less.
I am going to try and have a garden again this year....we will see how it goes. I am out of canned tomatoes, so I know I have to at least try. I used to could say that it was cheaper just to buy them, but here lately, I think it will be cheaper to grow them, thank you!!! My lettuce is already poking its way out of the ground, and I have put out some herbs that didn't make it through the ice. But my biggest goal will be my tomatoes and cucumbers and of course the okra, squash, peppers and such....just thinking about it makes my mouth water..We can't have a huge one because the deer just eat everything up....we get so mad because they are enjoying the fruits of our harvest a lot more than we get to, so now we are forced to grow them in raised beds within the chainlinked back yard where Sam can guard it and keep them away...not that he is doing such a good job with the rabbits or squirrels....I think his eye sight might be slipping or else he is just too darn lazy to do anything about it...he will chase them if he thinks we are looking, otherwise he just raises his eyebrow and turns his head, then back to nap town....what a dog...I think I would want to come back in life as my dog....
Well enough for tonight, I need to write a story on Coady's website, so I need to get going. Hopefully the next time I write, we will be enjoying some of the garden veggies....